Sunday, April 02, 2006 @12:04 am
Haiz...reading all my classmates blogs always make me feel guilty about not blogging as much.
Since everyone's talked about PW on Thursday, I shall too. Something totally weird took place...
We all had to change into PE attire, then Mr Shi told us that we were going for a walk and that no one was supposed to talk after we stepped out of the classroom. (of course everyone [almost] heck cared :p ). So we walked. We walked to east coast, then after we've put our bags down, we were told to spend half an hour doing whatever we wanted, anything, as long as we did it alone.
What did I do? I walked to one of those man made rocks jutting out into the sea and sat down. First, I was staring out into the ocean, just enjoying the peace and stillness. Then I started thinking about Germany.
We actually had everything planned. The pointer had been switching from "go" and "don't go". In times of desperate need, I turned to God. (another guilty point, but I am trying!) I remember asking God if I would go to Germany sometime in Feburary, He said yes. So I was expecting a MOE organised immersion programme. It was therefore a great big blow when Herr. S broke the news that there wouldn't be a MOE organised trip. Fine, nevermind, we started organising our own trip. We drew out a sketchy but still rather solid plan. Then, it was a rush to ask for parental permission. Guess what? I couldn't go, because most of the plan was just touring. Oh man! But there was still a chance if going to school would be part of the trip.
Being anxious to have a confirmed trip, we went to talk to FH on Monday. Her reation was so positive. She was positive that she could get the "school" part for us. Wonderful! I could go!
So that Thursday afternoon, I was thinking about the way God works...
God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in ways
We cannot see
He will make a way
...
How true that is. Just after I was thinking about how wonderful God was in the afternoon, I started questioning Him that night. FH emailed me and said that she had been "strongly encouraged" (which in moe terms=compulsory) not to help us in our private trip. She sounded to "nan wei qing" it was difficult to be angry with her. How could that have happened? After getting everybody all excited, we weren't going afterall because FH couldn't help us? What was God playing at? Never doubt the power of God and His promises. Friday evening, Lena told me that she had asked her school, and that they had said "YES". So "YES!" I thought! Germany, here we come!!! I'm sorry I've ever doubted you. I know there will be more challenges ahead, help me to keep my faith.
Reading my classmates blogs and about their relationship with God has also made me realise how much I've strayed...but believe me, I am trying...
He will make a way
You know you love me