Wednesday, August 26, 2009 @6:43 pm
Studied with Liz at Sing Post coffee bean today. Took a little peek into her immunology book.
I can understand and learn it so much better than I can my law readings!
Should I have tried harder to get into medicine? This is what comes out of not really know what you want to do, having too open a mind and leaving things to fate.
Not that I'm not enjoying law, but I feel so much more comfortable with science.
Am I just having difficulty adapting to things out of my comfort zone? Or should I really have been studying the sciences? Would I have as much difficulty with medicine in German as I am with law in English?
God only knows.
Take-away from Leadership and Teambuilding (LTB) today: Self motivation!
I've gotten myself into this. I can only reflect, but must also be forward thinking and focus and do well in the present.
Saturday, August 22, 2009 @1:18 am
The first week of school is over.
I have never felt so inadequate and stupid in my life.
After doing a decent amount of preparation for the first week of classes, to be stumped and provoked, have your thoughts messed up, questioning what you thought you'd previously understood.
Moral of the story: This is university and you're doing a law degree. It's different from JC. Get a grip and live with it!
Otherwise, lessons (though overwhelming) have been enjoyable. People pleasant and interesting. Enviroment conducive.
I'll have to get used to doing my readings with a dictionary on hand, spending hours pouring over hundreds of pages of black squiggles, summarising what I've read and critically thinking about everything. Bleah.
Thursday, August 13, 2009 @12:14 am
I was just sitting at my balcony for the past 20 minutes, hoping to catch a bit of the meteor shower. I didn't see a single shooting star. But no matter, the memories of the meteors I saw at Male are enough for now :)
But while sitting out there, I thought about several things.
1) I hadn't stepped onto my balcony for years! It's really quite nice and breezy (sometimes anyway)
2) At first sight, there aren't many stars visible (considering Singapore's horrible light pollution!). The longer you stare, the more time you take to look, as your eyes starts to adjust to the night sky, the fainter stars start to appear. The originally sparsely spotted sky now starts to look like a beautiful star lit sky.
Sometimes, we just need to slow down and take the time to look.
3) As you gaze at the sky, you notice that clouds will go by, and then you get a little annoyed that they're obscuring your view of the stars. But shift your attention away from the 'task' at hand, and you'll notice lots of interesting things about the cloud too. And as the cloud moves away, you'll see that the stars you were looking at are still there, and it might even reveal stars you had earlier failed to notice.
4) While waiting to see shooting stars, I was wondering what I'd wish for if I did see one; many things flitted across my mind, but nothing really of importance. Law school picked me, I'm not having any regrets, but I think it's time I picked my path instead of continuing to see what comes my way.
Currently, my short term goals are:
-to see as much of my old friends as possible
-to continue my musical education in some way
-to make new friends in school
-to find a worthwhile CIP to spend my time on
-to be a chao mugger
As for long term goals, I think I want:
-to do well in school and get into a glamourous law firm :) [as superficial as it sounds]
In JC, I got distracted from my earlier goal of becoming a doctor by the lure of 'the arts'. It was a fruitless distraction and detraction. While its good to explore other options and be open minded, instincts are still the best.
Though life should also be a mixture of surprises and planned procedures.
On another note, I've been seeing quite a bit of Ceci this past 'week before school starts' :D
Thursday, August 06, 2009 @2:49 am
Went out with the girls again to New Asia Bar and then Gluttons' Bay. Finally met Sok!
Finally going out with Ceci later!
Somebody needs to stop sticking her noses into my life and think that my time belongs to her! £($&£*(&^$(*"£&$
Tuesday, August 04, 2009 @1:39 am
Went out with the girls.
Loved it. Looking forward to more.
Lots of thoughts, lazy.
Primary one class talking again...lots of thoughts, lazy...
@1:38 am
On the bus today, I wondered: Are badly behaved students or badly behaved foreign workers more difficult to tolerate?
Monday, August 03, 2009 @1:53 am
Okay, now I shall actually get down to the flowy prose that I had in my head a week ago.
After my crew rest on my flight back to Singapore from Milan, I saw the first glimmer of sunrise as I walked past the window. It was a warm tinge of orange peeping out of the edge of the still dark horizon. Throughout breakfast, the sun slowly worked its way out, producing beautiful displays of changing colours across the morning sky. That was to be my last sunrise from the air for a long time to come. It was a nostalgic moment. While there were plenty of things I'll miss about flying, that beautiful sunrise seemed to be the first sign that a promising future lay ahead.
As I sat on my crew seat, awaiting our arrival into Singapore, small little white puffs of clouds filled the sky, billowing out from both sides of the plane, like a soft cushiony field of cloud. As the plane breezed through the lovely layer of soft cloud, I got my first view of Singapore Changi Airport, lit up by the bright rays of the morning sun. And as the plane landed and taxied to the gate, we drove past row upon unending row of SQ planes, all majestically lined up, proudly displaying "Singapore Airlines" on their sides and reflecting the sun off their tails adorned with the SIA logo. It was really a sight to behold and add to my feelings for my next step in life. A grand sendoff and wish of goodwill for whatever that was to come.
[as corny as all these sound]
And as I look at planes take off or land, I think of the cabin crew inside, working hard to meet and exceed the passengers' expectations, keeping our national carrier at the top of the market, and am proud to have served with and been a part of it all :)
It was been a wonderful year and a half, and I look forward to the next wonderful 4 years of my life in SMU law.