Tuesday, January 30, 2007 @8:49 pm
I'm talking to you right now!
I'm telling you everything
But you know nothing
Might you be hiding under the same mask as I?
I highly doubt that
Though I hope against all hope
Just came home from meeting my ddbestie. DD her had to walk all around nlb only to finally find the book she wanted at esplanade lib!Gelare rox! :D Dun stress over things gal! Life's like that you see :p
you know you love me
waiting for my fairytale too
Saturday, January 27, 2007 @7:35 pm
Don't you just love the feeling of being rushed off your feet? I do! The adrenaline pumping through your body, rushing from one place to another, having another thousand and one things on your to do list... :D Okay, I'm psycho. But I've totally enjoyed this past week. What with all the tutorials, SATs to prepare for, rushing from school to drama, from drama to german, preparation for german day, chatting at night after I reach home and then trying to do work later etc. etc. The next week is going to be like that too, since I'm trying to finish the dd 2000 work german coursework. Maybe its because I haven't been doing anything much for the past year that it feels so good to be doing so much ;)
Let me talk abit about school. One of the highlights of school now for me is angel and mortal. (I keep calling it angel and demon though :p) I think my mortal is super fun. We seem to have alot in common...so I letter is never enough to cover what I want to say..so I always have things left unsaid. I thinking i'm morphing into a good student quite well. So far I've never fallen asleep even once during lessons, I haven't even been sleeping in the library very often! Also, I've been dilgently trying to do my tutorials and some studying. One might say that I is expected of a J2 student, especially with common tests just a short 5 weeks away...but still, I must continue to say that I'm impressed with myself :D
Tweedle doo has been very irritating. I shan't elaborate on that.
I'm thinking, why is it so difficult to put their hearts and souls into something? I concluded that its because they don't feel that they "own" the something. In order to get a bunch of people to work tirelessly towards a goal, they must all genuinly want for it to happen. They must want to give it their all to make it happen. They must feel that they have a responsibility towards it. Its all very well saying all these, but how does one instill such a sense of "ownership" into others?
Two things inspired my thoughts.
1) German Day
2) Drama
Though the J1s claim that they love german and were happy to hear that there'd be a german day, I didn't see any enthusiam. So I thought it'd help if instead of simply asking them to do saikang I actually put them in charge of something. So, they were given 5pm-6pm's walkabout. Till now, I haven't seen or heard any development other than them agreeing to do it. Maybe its just that my expectations are too high and I'm simply too demanding.
As for drama...sigh...gone case? Again, its a matter of ownership. Our dear cast lack the sense of responsibility that they should be feeling for doing their best for syf. Okay, maybe not all of them, people like silver angel (i've no idea why he calls himself that) and shermin have fantastic attitudes. Thats much more than I can say for the rest. I'm not too worried about the "people". They only have 1 scene to worry about, and 3 months is more than enough time to perfect 1 scene; so I'm confidant that they'll end up perfect at the rate they're going. But the trees are singing to a totally different tune. They need to realise they urgency of things. They have 6 scences. 6.5 to be exact. This is the end of January, assuming that syf is in the 2nd week of april, we have 9 weeks left. That is about (9)(2)(2)[normal sessions]+(5)(4)[holidays]+(5)(2)[whatever else can be squeezed in]= 66 hours. By the end of the 60th hour, they should be simply going through the motions of the play to familiarise themselves with it. So 60 hours, 6 of which will be spent on make-up and costume tryouts. 54 hours, another 6 of which will be wasted (what with breaks and all)[and thats being optimistic]. 48 hours. This averages to 8 hours per scene. If our goal is another bronze, this will probably be sufficient. If it is a silver we're going for, they'll have to work very much harder than they are now. If a gold is our goal, everyone will need to make a 179degree turn (assuming they are already at 1degree).
All the inattentiveness, half-hearted recital of lines, xin bu zai yan(ness) are simply unacceptable. I must say that I've seen tremendous improvement in eugene, I don't know what to attribute it to, and although it is commendable, it is still not enough.
Once again I ask myself why I'm letting my hair turn white over this? WHY!? But I am...sigh...
you know you love me
Sunday, January 21, 2007 @10:11 pm
I admire from afar and wait.I wait for an advance.You know this is what I do.But you don't know that its you.ha, only a handful of people will be able to decipher that. Certainly not you. Not that you know of the existence of my blog anyway, since you don't believe in blogs.
On to other things.
I love German.
I despise Drama. (not really la)
I dread school. (not really either)
German rox! My current and ex classmates rox! I never thought I'd fall in love with it as much when I went for my first lesson in sec 1. No doubt I was full of excitement at learning a new language, and no doubt my dedicated teacher fuelled my interest, but I never thought that that interest would be sustained till today. Not only has it been sustained, but it has blossomed into love.
okay, that sounded weird...wasn't really what I wanted to say...
I adore G4C! Although we only saw each other for 4 hours a week, and only for a year, I love them more than all the other classes I've been with for at least 2 years. Not to mention our adorably cute frau heng. haha.
Its amazing how much fun we have together. I hope we'll continue to have such high attendance in our future outings in years to come. Our internation conference last wednesday was fantastic. I think people really scratch their heads when they see 15 people all in different uniforms having such a good time together.
This makes G4C the second group I want lifelong contact with ;)
Next topic: Drama.
Sigh...at the rate we're going, how on earth are we going to get any decent results???
We've spent 3-4 sessions on scene 7, and its hardly passable...especially the trees...the way the speak is blardy dead. There are I believe at least 4 to 5 other scenes to rehearse, some of which the cast haven't even memorised their lines...All these should be perfect in a span of 2 months. Which means 16 sessions, 3 or 4 of which will be spent on props and make up and what not. That leaves us with 12 sessions, to be divided among 6 scenes. 2 sessions per scene...ha...damn ridiculous!
I'm going back to do what damage control i can...but...but...but...sigh...
I believe a large part of this is due to some skeptical people. Their skeptism is not uncalled for...(given my rantings above) but absolutely undesired and unacceptable. As long as we're still doing this, no one involved can afford to be skeptical, especially none of the key players. That would already be more than half of the battle lost. Skeptism breeds slackism. Maybe you can be skeptical, but you need to give it your all too. And influence those around you to do the same.
I've no idea why I'm referring to drama as "we"...but i am...lol
Okay, now to school.
I'm in J2 now...its my A levels year. So far, I'm not doing too bad a job staying awake in class and completing my work. I'm actually quite impressed with myself. I need to accelerate though...and keep moving faster.
Its my last official school year. The last year I'll go to school with regular hours, the last year i'll be wearing a uniform etc. Not that 12 years is not enough...but since its the last year, I can't spend it just mugging away. i'll embrace all aspects of school life i can :D
wish moi luck! haha
you know you love me (do you?)
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 @11:24 pm
Unintended pun:
1) you have to get used to the daily routine (hearing you give your little morning speech?)
2) you have to understand the principle/principal...(make your own inferences)
Cosiety's anniversary is this Friday, and because of some stupid server problem, Cosiety is going to be down on its anniversary!!!
Don't you just love the sky in January? Singapore has the nicest night skies in January. Theres this patch in the sky where all the bright stars just cluster. Thats where you can see the northern cross too ;)
I wanna blog about drama, but have a million other things to do...
so ciao
you know you love me
ps: will you ever know i love you
Sunday, January 14, 2007 @1:09 am
Ah,maybe not the whole world is out to piss me off. Cause I just had the bestest day with 7 of my closest friends. Thanks alot guys :D
Fotos will be up on tamadecute soon.
Got a sweet present from my sweet darling junior.
And kudos must go to my dd best friend for the huge card which i'll never loose.
and of course hugs to everyone else :D
my new life motto :
laughter is the best medicine and cute crapping is the best drug!
you know you love me
ps: pester me to study!
Thursday, January 11, 2007 @10:55 pm
"We have extended the average tenure of leadership in schools - it is now slightly over 6 years on average - to give Principals more time to shape their own cultures within a school, and to follow through and embed any improvements or initiatives that they introduce. " Speech by Minister for Education at the 9th Appointment Ceremony for Princiapsl On 28th December 2006.
I swear the world is out to piss me off! The wonderful ministry makes this kind of decisions immediately after they pull VJ's principal back to MOEhq and replace her with a demoted fellow! They deprive us of another year of our fantastic culture. And now this fellow [tweedle doo (tweedle dee and tweedle dum are his parents)] will have more time to "shape his own culture within the school". The day his culture becomes VJ culture will be a sad day indeed.
Other than that, a super freaky thing happened today. I was by the staircase outside the General Office (it'll always be GO! no fancy name like admin office!), i was imitating tan yew hwee...how he shakes when he talks etc...+ i said things quite loudly...and he walked past!!! I immediately ran for my life while he stared at me stupefied...i suppose he was wondering how anyone would have the guts to do what I did...it was super scary!!!
Thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday!
I'm finally old and legal!
you know you love me
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 @11:07 pm
YAY! isn't bitching addictive!?!?!
Heres a little summary of the 2 bitching sessions I had tonight ;)
1)
Proposals:
1) ban fried food
2) ban short shorts which are meant to be short
3) impossible silence before national anthem
4) ban tidbits
5) short sweet and sharp assemblys everyday
Rebuttals:
1) please ask him to set a good example
2) please ask him to try out exercising so that he knows short shorts are required
3) 1600 people +teachers... how to control? how to silence? you think someone pass away issit?
...even singing national anthem oso not silent
4) 7-11
5) ask him cut down on his speech time too
Somebody else was:
like understanding
if she wants a change
she doesnt just say it, she makes sure she knows what is happening
not like.. ...
and.. she also always set the example for us to follow
she gives half days appropriately, like on sea reggata
she calls teachers by appropriate names
she is takes part actively in school events
in sea regetta... and she lets the whole school enjoy it
with her
not like... ... who went
but did not invite
theres actually a bit more...but ah well, you get the picture :p
2)
3 bimbos decide to have a little formality thingie just for the sake of it.
they ignore the efforts of those affected. they are blind to the desperate rehearsals before the forced auditions.
they force out commitments. the put all the good people together and all the not so good people together. how absolutely retarded can they get? they exploit free labour shamelessly. they are hypocritical. they're a bunch of liarers. they pull in someone else to "make things seem fair". in short, they're bunch of spastic retards...
what to do?
to attempt or not to attempt to save a sinking ship?
you know you love me
Tuesday, January 09, 2007 @10:41 pm
The whole world just revels in pissing me off!
I passed my Maths R-Paper! Endorphines just ooozed out after I heard that. But hey, guess what? Someone thinks I've no right to be happy! Like What The TOOT!!!! I don't expect praise, but a nice well done keep it up would have been nice. If you have nothing encouraging or positive to say I'd appreciate if you didn't play down my achievements.
Next thing thats pissing MOI off is a couple of absolutely bimbotic women; one of which doesn't even fulfil one of the basic criteria of being a bimbo, but due to the lack of another suitable word (or the unwillingness to think of one), she shall still be bimbo. And to add to these bimbos is another incompetant fool! What on earth is the world coming to? These 3 women together, have almost successfully clean washed away 10 weeks of toil. They think they can do better, all the best to them then.
Thank God for my dear OG! I've had fantabulous time with them, and those darlings celebrated my bday for moi on monday. So sweet of them ;) Thanks guys! :D
you love you love me
Sunday, January 07, 2007 @1:24 am
What can I say?
I LOVE VJC!!!
you know you love me
Thursday, January 04, 2007 @12:10 am
First day of school! woohoo!
R-paper wasn't tt bad. Considering I still think I can pass after completing the paper an hour before time and leaving 26 marks blank.
Orientation was good, though I probably won't be able to talk by the end of it.
The horrible thing is the new super duper f** and chilli like principal. Gah, I so want mrs chan back!!! After what people had been saying i was beginning to think that things would be as bad as i'd imagined they'd be. But they're worse!!! grrr, i shan't even begin to attempt to explain how so. suffice to say that he is a great contrast and has not created a very good first impression and is not likely to create a better second or third or fourth impression...
good luck to me in my mugging year!
you know you love me :D
you don't know i love you though
Monday, January 01, 2007 @9:37 pm
My J1 year is no more.
I haven't had piano lessons for a year.
I'm into my second year in VJC.
My juniors are J1s now.
The youngest people I know in CCHMS are already sec 3.
In other words, 2006 has past.
We're now almost a day in 2007. (9.30pm)
(10.10pm): and i've lost my blogging appetite...lemme try anyway
my 3/4 year in VJ has been heaven. Up till not too long ago I think I was still revelling in the fact that I'm actually a Victorian. I haven't done very well in my tests and exams...honeymooning too much...
2007, I'm j2, its my A level year. Time to buck up!!! No more sleeping in the library. No more sleeping in lectures. No more undone tutorials.
I try shall to the best of my ability to read all my lecture notes before they start teaching. I want my 4 As for A levels. How I'm going to get them, its up to me...grrr...I need to study!!!
This is an appeal to all victorians who read my blog. If you see me sleeping or slacking in school, poke me and make me do work! I'll be greatly indebted to you. Thank you very much in advance.
I'm trusting my mugging instincts to kick in once the urgency settles in. It has always happened, it must happen again.
other than school work, I need to get my german club ball rolling! hopefully, with new enthu J1s who take h2/h1 german, i'll have more kids to do all the saikang...also, theres german day to organise...gah...work is still only in the starting stages...NOOOOooo...we're running out of time...if we really want to do it on the 31st jan...
I don't know how people who have a thousand CCAs and still get all their As and juggle 2 h3s do it...sigh...
next on the agenda: DRAMA. our dear shannon seah has kindly commited our (ceci, tony,myself and himself) time to drama for us. and we have garunteed the teachers at least a silver for syf. not that I've no confidance in pulling it off, we have a great cast, we have shannon etc...but...but...its a huge responsibility...and the reality of that is just starting to kick in...my wednesdays and fridays will be totally gone...rush from vj to cchm, from cchm to moelc, from moelc to home, from home to books...how nice...but i'm sure it'll be all worth it after we get our at least silver :D fingers crossed, 4 leave clovers clapsed...
this is a very unorganised post, because i'm going to go back to 2006 now. I shall start my granny reminiscing...well, actually, i just want to talk about how much closer i've gotten to my friends since the dec hols. These people namely those in the CCCC (cute cum crazy club), namely a bunch of my drama friends. These are the kind of friends that one can fall back on and who are the ones who will pull you through the floods. One will have many aqquaintances. You will have people you can get along with, people you hang out with quite often (probably because you see them more often than others), people whom you think are your close friends, but you actually don't know each other that well. But every person also needs a friend or a group of friends whom no matter how far apart you are physically, they are the ones who know you well and will always be there. I think I've found mine ;) Amazing thing is this group is made up of many different ages...
Heres to a fantastic year aheadof success in every aspect.
Heres to 2007!!! (champagne bottle pops)
you know you love me
@1:18 am
I've sent out new year messages to the singtel users on my list.
If you're on my list but are not a singtel user, too bad, you'll only get my message if you read my blog.
And if you're not on my list at all, but happen to read my blog, congratulations, you've gotten yourself a new year greeting from a queen :D
"HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU! wishing u all the best in ur 2007 endeavours! may lady luck be with you always! cheers n god bless :D"
you know you love me