Saturday, January 27, 2007 @7:35 pm
Don't you just love the feeling of being rushed off your feet? I do! The adrenaline pumping through your body, rushing from one place to another, having another thousand and one things on your to do list... :D Okay, I'm psycho. But I've totally enjoyed this past week. What with all the tutorials, SATs to prepare for, rushing from school to drama, from drama to german, preparation for german day, chatting at night after I reach home and then trying to do work later etc. etc. The next week is going to be like that too, since I'm trying to finish the dd 2000 work german coursework. Maybe its because I haven't been doing anything much for the past year that it feels so good to be doing so much ;)
Let me talk abit about school. One of the highlights of school now for me is angel and mortal. (I keep calling it angel and demon though :p) I think my mortal is super fun. We seem to have alot in common...so I letter is never enough to cover what I want to say..so I always have things left unsaid. I thinking i'm morphing into a good student quite well. So far I've never fallen asleep even once during lessons, I haven't even been sleeping in the library very often! Also, I've been dilgently trying to do my tutorials and some studying. One might say that I is expected of a J2 student, especially with common tests just a short 5 weeks away...but still, I must continue to say that I'm impressed with myself :D
Tweedle doo has been very irritating. I shan't elaborate on that.
I'm thinking, why is it so difficult to put their hearts and souls into something? I concluded that its because they don't feel that they "own" the something. In order to get a bunch of people to work tirelessly towards a goal, they must all genuinly want for it to happen. They must want to give it their all to make it happen. They must feel that they have a responsibility towards it. Its all very well saying all these, but how does one instill such a sense of "ownership" into others?
Two things inspired my thoughts.
1) German Day
2) Drama
Though the J1s claim that they love german and were happy to hear that there'd be a german day, I didn't see any enthusiam. So I thought it'd help if instead of simply asking them to do saikang I actually put them in charge of something. So, they were given 5pm-6pm's walkabout. Till now, I haven't seen or heard any development other than them agreeing to do it. Maybe its just that my expectations are too high and I'm simply too demanding.
As for drama...sigh...gone case? Again, its a matter of ownership. Our dear cast lack the sense of responsibility that they should be feeling for doing their best for syf. Okay, maybe not all of them, people like silver angel (i've no idea why he calls himself that) and shermin have fantastic attitudes. Thats much more than I can say for the rest. I'm not too worried about the "people". They only have 1 scene to worry about, and 3 months is more than enough time to perfect 1 scene; so I'm confidant that they'll end up perfect at the rate they're going. But the trees are singing to a totally different tune. They need to realise they urgency of things. They have 6 scences. 6.5 to be exact. This is the end of January, assuming that syf is in the 2nd week of april, we have 9 weeks left. That is about (9)(2)(2)[normal sessions]+(5)(4)[holidays]+(5)(2)[whatever else can be squeezed in]= 66 hours. By the end of the 60th hour, they should be simply going through the motions of the play to familiarise themselves with it. So 60 hours, 6 of which will be spent on make-up and costume tryouts. 54 hours, another 6 of which will be wasted (what with breaks and all)[and thats being optimistic]. 48 hours. This averages to 8 hours per scene. If our goal is another bronze, this will probably be sufficient. If it is a silver we're going for, they'll have to work very much harder than they are now. If a gold is our goal, everyone will need to make a 179degree turn (assuming they are already at 1degree).
All the inattentiveness, half-hearted recital of lines, xin bu zai yan(ness) are simply unacceptable. I must say that I've seen tremendous improvement in eugene, I don't know what to attribute it to, and although it is commendable, it is still not enough.
Once again I ask myself why I'm letting my hair turn white over this? WHY!? But I am...sigh...
you know you love me